Malei Malei Hom

hey no title for now until i figure something out for this gantry

2008-06-19T01:12:00.004+08:00

i can safely say, i safely reached a milestone.

a long (maybe not really THAT long,) and (i wanted to say arduous, but no, not that much) exhausting routing.

and, to keep in mind, and to rejoice. Holidays spent with the sunshining girlfriends are way too awesome, fab, and lovely(supposingly the most suitable vocab, but of course, they're WAY MORE THAN this sentence) . Never have i had people like them, so they're like sentenced to life-time stay in my fist-so-big-heart? ah yea *nods* (happy ah, my fist small ok so not alot people can stay). HEEHEE. so cheesy. AND SO BIMBOTIC.

but im loving it.

still rmbering

"keeping those, who keeps you close to the heart"

as much as i love this domain as much,
and there's too much of "I" and "You" here,
so im seeking another ground,(BUT IM NOT DELETING THIS, im selfish, much love)

my humble abode, another killing grace.

in loving memory of maleimaleihom.blogspot.com and so much more.

=)

2008-06-11T23:57:00.002+08:00

behind my stories, is always other people's stories.

too much of, "my friends once tell me.."

now it's time for my own. *smirk*

2008-06-10T17:08:00.001+08:00

The sky so blue, and i miss you.

Jus need to get closer, closer
lean on me now, lean on me now.

Think of the times you sang as we sat on the marble and lay on the laps, so nice. It always makes me smile., always.. :)

tik tak tik tak.

#36 - LIFE's a beach

2008-06-05T15:51:00.002+08:00

all breezy and windy. accompanied with sunshines and random downpours.

the stillness in the air when the night befalls, the calmness of the surroundings and the occasional splashing of the waves. so soothing to one happy soul
too much wont be good though.

it will be good to have some crowds around you, and all its needed is a chill room among the human traffics.

my first ever slumber party with the superradandcoolalsoawesome girls
asfkjwqlj!@$#akas

so excited can!

♥

2008-06-01T03:45:00.003+08:00

on the way home,
we pass by the expressways and the neighbourhood

saw the orangey round mushroom street lamps,

massive amount of street lamps kept appearing right infront, it jus kept doing so.
it devour people, getting into a spaceship right in a van.

it got crashed,
one after another
blending the heart, blending the soul
so raw, so fine, so raw

2008-05-27T12:44:00.004+08:00

sad song with happy lyrics
happy song with sad lyrics.

"cos there's beauty in the breakdown"

#33 - the birth of some enlightenment

2008-05-19T19:57:00.003+08:00

it's vesak day, a celebration of the birth of the Buddha, and also a public holiday. which i use it as an excuse to...

Took the day off from work and seek refuge at home. Wise choice i guess, wouldnt want to be caught red in my underwear at work and with all the cramps n ache that comes along.

Since mum went for the vesak's lamp ceremony and with brother starting work officially today, i have the whole house to myself. Now, it's dimly lit by the corridor and the washroom lights with some pirated songs i just download playing in the background, i can smell the teen spirit around.

im looking forward to the days to come, for the slumber party and all the weekly affairs. yea, when the momentary quietness wears away.
oh, slipper boy..

#32 - feeling it, uh

2008-05-17T12:46:00.002+08:00

in the midst of growing up and changes, i've pretty much lost some of my beliefs. But still trying hard to hang on to some of them. So much moulding that often, the outlook's rather filmsy. But fret not, it's not about changing but alot of realising and accepting.

feeling perspective is so much easier then feeling feelings.

#30 - the one about a jar

2008-05-06T14:33:00.007+08:00

it still feels very surreal. because, people moving on and mostly.. none actually have time to stop and mourn. Tough time, imagine a scratch on the tape and it just continue winding, the induced scratch and the foreign noise, so deafening that it comes to soothe out.. my soul.

Still the same, yet so different.

The same old routine, yet so different with the absent. Everything else, i place it inside this jar and leave it untouched. Nobody shall know about it anymore, not anymore. Like i said before, i dont act like it. Heartless i feel when other's more concerned about me more than i do. Im tied up. More than anytime ever.

The route back still feels very heavy.. probably the jar, i guessed.

Am I the only sour cherry on the fruit stand

2008-04-16T02:34:00.002+08:00

the echo of my weeping translate into the harmony of melancholy

it's reaching out to my dear man.

#29 - the one about it feel kind like..

2008-04-11T13:38:00.005+08:00

the gleam of sunshine after a heavy downpour.

the little warmth that exist within the cold humid atmosphere,
yet with the dark grey skies looming over your entire territory
and wonder long & hard at it;
so hard that it's heavy to just walk along the pavement of flower
so hard that even chocolates or ice cream dont taste sweet,
when will they go away, where laundry can be bring out
dogs let out to play, and being so free.

because, i have people loving me,
with me leveling up as well.

#28 - the one about .....

2008-04-10T00:38:00.002+08:00

it just get me down when it's isnt what's said.

so many i've seen, 1 by 1 it sinks. some challenge to stay afloat and breathe.
and what? it's only april.

keep breathing...
to be sane.

i really cant write, it's hard

#27 - the one about this

2008-04-04T01:04:00.002+08:00

this feels about reclusive exclusive or maybe even seclusive.

i can rant
bitch
cry
and complain

nobody knows!

=) and the thing about small fonts is like it look so.. so... it's jus nice to look at!
it's like a refreshing change isnt it?

tmr, outing with the supercool&retarded girlfriends :)))

#26 - the one bout today

2008-03-27T23:40:00.002+08:00

started living today.
i moved out of yesterday, and stop going on further down.

now that my holiday is coming to an end in 1 week time, it start to be pack with more programme and ability to enjoy. sigh. what only sia.

peace ah

#25 - the one about love

2008-03-20T01:17:00.003+08:00

so much being said and how many taken in.

for all i know, it might be fading.
unsure of certainty, i tried to smile
only to look back got stuck with tears
for what may comes, grins along
top it off with the sweet sorrow

im hit with unlovely vibes.

#24

2008-03-14T03:21:00.001+08:00

though days isnt the same
but i still got the pictures to document.

:)

ahh, it feels good to be back there all over again

#23 - the one about funny.. what

2008-03-12T21:51:00.003+08:00

there's this funny taste in my mouth, i dont know if it's from my bad tooth or my phlegm-contained airway or my sore throat or just..
with this taste, there's these funny thoughts.

anger,
guilt,
racy,
jealousy,
doubt.

apparently, it's not healthy and beneficial to our relationship. Yet, i continue feeding my brain with more n more paranoia and distrust.

It's so much nicer to reminisce on the time where we jus started out. You and me, simple and sweet. Of course, thing's so much better now. Yet it seems like something is lacking.
Yes, willam's still so special.

i've been too free to blog stalk, reading up what people have got to say and missing out what i wan to say.
needless to say, alot of things like getting detached frm internet, refraining from plopping on the swivel chair, reducing the tendency to tap the computer switch and stop logging in to livejournal.com just to access SGST should be done. Simple to say, im addicted to the internet. Probably, go for some retail therapy counselling, or i would very much love to learn how to knit.

Let school begin asap, i wanna see that cute drummer around. ^-^

to the endless rainy days,
boo.

chew

#22 - the one about arr.. is ah this ah lorf ah

2008-03-05T01:38:00.006+08:00

i wanna lorf ya
and treat you right;
i wanna lorf ya
ey ver ri day and ey ver ri nigh;
we'll be together with a loof light ova ouh head;
we'll share the shelter of my singer bed;
we'll share the same loom yeah! lalalalaa

Is this lorf is this lorf is this lorf that im feeling
is this lorf is this lorf is this lorf that im feeling

i wanna know wanna know wanna know nah!
i got to know got to know got to know nah!

woo yeah, so sexy.

Is this love, Bob Marley

#21 - the one where pardon my game

2008-02-29T01:02:00.003+08:00

i have the slightest idea to do something about what im doin.

of course i aint doin it out.

Time for a revolution
where the birds sings in the sky
with the blue ants skipping by.

Argh,
all i do these days, is falling asleep after my

* i realise, it's exactly 1 month after the last post. woo

#20 - the one i hate it most

2008-01-29T14:26:00.000+08:00

im such a foolish soul
to believe
plunging in
the side of err
carried the wrong facade
with the wrong assumption
bringing my guilt
round the garden,
probably back...
onto the bench i sat.

such people of such front
i need none.
forget my words
i shall not.

sorry babes, i still hate it
these little games we all played.
yet i love the trade we did shared.

always in memory, dear ~~mates~~ people.
:/

#19 - the one i forgot

2008-01-19T00:21:00.000+08:00

#18 - the one with negative vibe

2008-01-10T01:45:00.000+08:00

im cooped.
And i finally witness the outcome my wonderful ability of stressing over every anything

I lost all sort of.. energy.
Maybe more than that, all the tiny significant.. gone. And it left people there hanging and pondering. It got rather messed up too.
The thing is, how come i know what i will do is something i dont want to do, but still end up doing it and realise it with the immense disgust.

Music tracks are like small memory folders, you associate all the immediate emotion and remember that track as that. And when u're back with the same track, u reminisce and relive those emotions all over and over again. So what happened, when u lost this particular memory folder.

akfjdjvajdfijadifjadijf
:(

#17 - the one about my sunday

2007-12-24T03:39:00.000+08:00

probably, i should start applying toner on my face so that i'll have a more pore-refined complexion.

so the weather was pretty unpredictable, it was sunny one moment, cloudy the next, drizzle or sunny the next next moment. The mood-o-meter was fluctuating with the weather, well, thinking time will pass faster if business picks up just a little.
Since, being on the floor was so uninteresting and the cashier counter doesnt need me, i bugged ken to allow me to punch out. He did agree to.

And so the waiting of the 'Christmas party' start.. nothing's as interesting as gobbling down the piping hot pizzas. Basically while waiting, i was just floating around seeing where i can fits in for some small talks. Since no fixed place for me to hang around , it got me feeling lonesome, so i just hang around the counter.

Poor jinhua kena sabo-ed by the males, drenched with dirty pool water. Sigh.. That's just how it works. It's always about some popularity contest. I never like my effort goes unappreciated, but what can i do. Tellllllllllll Meeeeeeeee. People jus rmb the bad u do, dont they? Maybe i shouldnt be a good employee.

Some of us jus need some attention.

Oh yes, merry christmas.. oh merry

#16

2007-12-20T16:15:00.000+08:00

#14 - the one stuck in reverse

2007-11-23T00:24:00.000+08:00

im in love, are you

i've been typing out for the past 10 minutes,

and backspacing as well.

looks like what i got to say is really stupid and insane.

but this queer feeling i got seems determine to stay

i can only utter a fuck

if i wanna tell

coz we'll be at it all over again.

or am i thinking too deep, once again

come on, i can do this
way way better then me.

i m chewatron

#13 - the one with my birthday

2007-11-22T02:02:00.000+08:00

It was the 19th, on the 21st.

So on last friday, the party was a success.
Everyone's nice enough to travel all the way to sengkang and walk to my humble flat.
Guess the pizzas were fine for everyone, and they show my mum some support for the chicken wings and fried rice.
The pleasant surprised were good, touching uh. Like all the best have come together. nice.
Just that it have to end early since we were at such faraway location from everyone's home, plus stayover's not possible.

I couldnt rmb much, but mostly everyone's laughter ringing in my head, i was worrying about being a bad host.

Anyway,
birthday's filled with scheap sthrills, sexciting, sfunny and shappy shappenings.

The bodyguard formation just cracks me up.
Tankew guys!

And probably thanks to friendster birthday reminder, i've recieved alot more birthday wishes then i deserved.

And erm... the stalk of flower i asked for still cheer and hype me up, till now. It will probably greet me several good mornings before it resigned to its fate.
:)))

Tata people,

xoxo
chewy

#12 - the oen with very blue sky

2007-11-14T16:27:00.000+08:00

i shower my afternoon stoning session with some different music

and by the end of weary blues from waitin' i got abit giddy. it's true.

i love the smell of the room when granny stays in, basically the whole house smells different.
i loike.
and berry looks extremely extremely adorable today.
i've yet bath n it looks to be a good hair day.
the good weather add its goodness to everything.

but not u. it was so bad, that i was in the same spot jus as i was with you there, exactly. right. there.
i meant, i missed you so bad.

sometimes i wonder why ppl dont reply my msg, when they're the very msg people.
oh, and i realise i havent press 'send' haha
-.-

i stilll havent make up my mind, to continue to stone or liven up a bit.
the house is still in the same disorder, when actually i got some action done. mmmm, what's wrong.

mika's tune so groovy

bet elijah mus be gaming

#11

2007-11-13T18:24:00.000+08:00

it jus feels slightly different this time
a little bit of frustration, a little bit of helplessness;
alot of humdrummmmmmmmmmm ba

im so bored out over here.

#10 - the one with family talk

2007-11-10T05:19:00.000+08:00

the family bond at the most unexpected time.

with all different kind of topic, and comments and acceptance level reaching another line.

so interesting in this wee hours of the morning.
so many taboo discussed, cheap thrills to the core.

may the night be as cool, for me as for u :)

#9- the one where thou shall not question, thou shall not ask.

2007-11-07T23:03:00.000+08:00

awesome bad day. buffet spread definitely hype me up alot. at least the lunching company makes up for any displeasure.

the bad part was really, bad. desperation calls for desperate measures and sobbing really dont do much help but scares ownself out even more. but desperate measures brings in desperate help, which solve everything promptly. All within 4 hours.. lucky i.. lucky didnt.. lucky ah.. wah, really lucky.

i look thru the faces and the pumping heart swell a little. the sweet face of yours is so distant. we had our fair share of fun, and now it's theirs.
our talk about every anything was really nothing, but cheap.
our

i cringed inside everytime i say this out loud, "changes is always for the better". it's true, definitely. but im not really up for changes. it take away my familiarity and confidence itsy-bitsyly. and i hate the fact that i've change and we all do.
but what i really agree on, "the only constant is changes". tsk. what's an irony, isnt it?

Maybe, it's once again our sensitive-unfolds-into-misunderstanding sort of affair. tsk. aint a cool lass.

in the midst of all these, i miss the old us.

what i got to know prepares me for the matters of the heart. dubiety of what he've got the say, but let's just leave it at that.
at least i know, i'll probably be just another passing memory. im nothing fancy nothing new, nothing impressive nothing of a big deal.
everything still looks fresh and unexpected, i've got a granted wish from the cupid. weee :}}}

and for those who i ask for presents..
give me your time as that instead can? a gathering will be really good. maybe something that dont cost money but your time and thoughts :]

#9

2007-10-30T15:38:00.000+08:00

this book, namely "twilight"
got me into the crazy reading phase all over again. i didnt put down the book till about 4.30 am this morning, when i told myself it's really time to get some rest before i miss another day of school again.

it's about this perfectly gorgeous beautiful vampire, Edward Cullen romancing this l mortal being, Isabella Swan. how far can they keep up? and their relationship's so much desired upon.

in the midst of so many birthday preparation, i get to hint my birthday present. hehe. i know it's abit shameless. hehe. but nyway, i asked for a leather bag, something roomy and nice enough to carry around.
actually, i still prefer the good ol' fashion way of surprises!

it'll be definitely be great to see all my friends around and have a mini party, i'm deprived of that since young and never really had one myself. it's always nice and full of envy to be attending friend's birthday party. But so far, it's been all fun and awesome. [=

*

talk about birthday party, stella and milt's bbq celebration was way way more fun than i've expected. There were sufficient food, even leftovers. Guys were being helpful, taking turns to grilled food to edible extent. I guess the wholesaler idea was great, food was marinated and prepared and definitely proved to be more appetizing then it would be, if we were to do it ourselves.

i was rather sick of chicken that i kept gorging myself with the potato with sour creme and downing the unwanted prawns. keep myself entertained and filled with all the digging and peeling. hehehe.

the best part about the food was actually the ice-cream cake, oh man, awesome to the core. hehehe, it's just the affinity between the sweet-toothed and the cakes & such.

then they starting drinking excessively i think. lucily jin bo and hai bo was around, taking care of the drunk but undefeated ones. random people was looking out for them also.

some parts like looking at tranny and girls talk were what filled up the night, interestingly insightful.

there are more parts to it, but i cant really piece it all up nicely already.
but indeed, it was really a night where it's so fantastic.

#8 - the one ends with oh wells

2007-10-22T22:05:00.000+08:00

i have been forgetting things i'm suppose to be doing or i've said. anything about me saying.. i've forgotten.

sigh, i dont like this feeling of remembering i've actually forget.

anyway, my hp bill statement shows that i've got no outgoing calls for a MONTH. to think i survive on/with people's incoming call.

i've got issues with the boyfriend thing..
but it seems.... im not makin effort as well :O

oh wells.

#7

2007-10-19T11:30:00.000+08:00

i started out my bad hair day waking up late, and contemplated about skipping school, again. hee.

i knew i have to come because i have successfully skip 2 lesson consecutively.. in the end, i fought off the temptation to go back to sleep till a later time.

i had a dream, a rendezvous with this charming and flirtatious fella. it's not a sweet dream, but at least i had a good sleep yesterday as compared to recent lousy nights, i guess the milk's working.

popeye later.. oh man, yummy shiz and fattening yikes

#6 - the one with yawning and midnight chats

2007-10-19T01:10:00.000+08:00

i completed my PP due today. and it was much to my satisfaction that i did it,

guess that was the nicest thing that i've completed this day that took awhile to end.

maybe.. my winning of tetris too.

#5 - the one where i update at a go

2007-10-15T13:41:00.000+08:00

actually, i've got this post i been wanting to post, well, maybe when i sort the post out.

i've been very tired recently, my late sleeping habit must have been the cause of this. therefore, most probably i will take this week to cleanse myself up. Going home straight after school and getting ready for bed by.. 10? yeap, and stella mention about swimming at her apartment's pool im looking forward to it!!! time for some healthy lifestyle isnt it? but the thing is i keep forgetting to drink water religiously and end up binge-drinking water. also, fruits! i cant include the habit of eating fruits, maybe for like a few days... then i'll go back to the non-fruits day. well, im thinking of ways to include exercise into the whole i-wanna-eat-n-be-healthy-lifestyle thing. It means i have to plan it on the days i wash my hair, the thing is well, if i wash my hair every single day, my hair will be very dry and awful you see.
hehe... i got the whole time to think about these stuffs. heehee.

i've missing out school for alot of times also, there's time when i really overslept and decide not to be there rather than be late, there's time where i stayed home to paint my room
and now it jus reeks sat-tis-fat-tion! and the fact that i allowed to participate in the painting just soothe me in many ways =]

and.. the aftereffect of berry's castration was bad, well maybe it's the per normal reaction of every dog. he was rather groggy, didnt move very much and cried alot which sounds like whining to us. With that, he was granted all access to every room in the household, resting as and when and where he like. sissy was so heartbroken looking at him being in that manner, but now then berry's smiling and crushing into any object that's prospective of ruining his plastic head band she's all smiles and relieved. other than that, he's treated very much alike to a baby, becoz of the head band he cant reach for water so we have to feed him water either with the syringe or the water dispenser. it'll be great to be hugging him after his disinfectant period. wee~

mmm.. and then the ben&jerry's treat was incredibly lovely =]
there's many unknown factors around, and i really dont know what is it that's pulling me down.
i love to have someone like that, but still, i cant help but to be skeptical. i cant threw it away. in some ways, keeping a positive outlook at it is difficult but then again, it's like worrying about he will suffocate from breathing which is to say, redundant isnt it? rmb, we're something different. just this.

other than that, life's good.

peace out

#4 the one where i dont know what to say

2007-09-27T19:34:00.000+08:00

i've no issue about being alone, and it's definitely different from being lonely.

going everywhere myself is not a big deal.
and life made much peaceful like this
because being lonely, is having no one there for you.

but the thing now is, many things seems to be slipping away from me. Not like i gave it a try to hold it, but i guess i jus neglected it over the time.

now that she and i seem to be like online friends only, where we rarely meet up, or maybe only those occasional bump-into. probably, in the midst of wanting to hang out with the rest, i chose to give up the chance/time where i can be spending time with her.
it was my choice to make, and now i regret it.

sigh.

there's people u know u wan.
making new friends isnt exciting anymore. it's like, i dislike awkward silence between the new friend and i. those few seconds seems like few hours to pass, and it just feel awful when im just too tired to start a conversation.

coz, with the close friends, silence are rather enjoyable, it's the company and presence of them.

well, maybe i shldnt make a big deal out of this. since all i need to get by in school, is essentially still there. and i jus hope it can get better.
suddenly, coming home feels so comfy and nice.

#3

2007-09-26T19:41:00.000+08:00

these few days i've been experiencing immense plain jealousy and being a such a major sensitive female, with an unexplainable force in me.

like i've become increasingly selfish i guess? i cant seem to remember what my friends told me about their stuff, and i fail to follow up on them. sigh. i would like to remember but it means i will have to remember whole lots of other things.

i wish i can be more well-versed in english, which i will love to pen down many many lines expressing the exact emotion i've got to share. Describing every bit of my encounter intricately detailing them with the most touch.

and in the midst of being acquainted with the new classmate, i find it very tiring. i dont want to just msn xiao yuan online, i feel i've neglected her somewhere over the time. i dislike talking to wendy lim and faking my concern/expression for her. }:[

there's too many incomplete entries anyway.

#2 - the one with love

2007-09-14T13:37:00.000+08:00

it's such a slow and lazy day
cold weather, stomach on the mattress and slow ballads playing in the backgrounds.

the thought of cozy up with someone is running ever so freely, and then stoning the time away or indulge in some laughters. awesome.
oh man. i see it growing, everytime we laugh again after productive settlements.

act of contradictory.
is awfully disgusting, especially when u see urself committing it.
"let's mean what we say, and let's say what we mean"

my last official holidays-day. BUT, when sch reopen, it's gonna be a 4 day week for me. tralalalala~

anyway, i wanna win the challenge on Sunday!

#1

2007-09-05T00:58:00.000+08:00

hello blog,

it was a day for irving's birthday celebration. there were many many cork ups, as in, we got busted by some of them and then we hv this lao cb uncle tip us off with the stupid lifeguard for bbq-ing then it was drizzling and not-drizzling (which dont matters anyway, hehe) so it wasnt things as plan! gosh, i have this thing with planning.

coz, i feel screwed when i've plan sui sui and it turns out another which really defeats my purpose of planning. Like how i plan to buy ds lite then my paycheque got surname errors and and, william just.. oops

but as i was saying, birthday's celebration. it was at sentosa then bbq-ing at bukit purmei.
it was fun, hahaha, and it's the company and people spending time together matters ba. It's like.. we make effort to come together.. wah wah wah.
anyway.. this whole bbq-ing make me know some of the hoods better. in every kind of ways.
=)

irving! =) happy birthday for the one more time.
rmb my flying kiss to you ok?
*

as we leave a cup of milo on the table for long, the particles will definitely settle down at the bottom of the glass. And as you stir it, the particles and the water entwined each other and once again fuses into this drink u name milo.

this particular motion, is jus like how he affect me. everything anything.. he can stirred up my premixed emotions. which i really still dont know how to handle it.

i will be and not act like it.
this feels so new. =)

#0

2007-08-31T02:41:00.000+08:00

as i was msning syaq,
i realise i've been abandoning my blog post for quite sometimes. reason being that, probably i blog when im to tired, leaving it unfinished and label as draft, either that im too distracted and give up at the end.

well, since it's e late night, online-shop-browsing's done, msn quietened down, no much distraction except berry's random intrusion. i think, why not chalk up one more entry before i go for the before-bed routine. well hopefully it dont end up ranting about william again, haha [:

***

alot of things really start from within

to have people loving you, you have to start loving yourself. appreciate yourself like how u wan other people appreciate you. [:
i wanted to embark on this "soul-searching" journey. which means, i wanna disappear, from william, or at least someone i wan them to appreciate.
the decision is to, ignore any smsn, phonecalls from the named.

first day of it, i succesfully manage purposely missed 1 sms and really missed 2.
then.. i cave in the second day. weee~ pathetic.
but no worry people. u can always start the appreciation workshop anytime anywher anyhow.

coolz. so what i need to do now, is starting to appreciate the home-cooked dinner which i've neglected over the last semester of sch.

so when i was in my disturbing and noisy mode, mummy say:"wah, been a long time since meimei entertain and accompany"
gosh.. did i realise what a daughter i've been. oops.

now, look at what i wanna write and what i've type. hahaha.
u're losing your mojo chewy

weeeeeeeeeeeee~

tired of the same fucking things

2007-08-22T00:21:00.000+08:00

it gets tiring to try to be/act like a man sometimes, trying too hard i guess.

but there's a level of limit to how much i can take it. this's really stupid, getting angry at things that're not happening. yes, this is. keep going at it like a circle.

vann say im too sensitive, but arent girls sensitive in the first place? and why m i getting so guilty over that? afterall, im a girlfriend.

maybe it's jus like how syaq say, girls are troublesome.
jus like how the earth spin and rotate on the orbit.

damn, why cant i jus open my fucking mouth and rmb what i want to say.

***

truth to be told.. i dont even know whether we are of the same level. referring to, our viewpoint and belief sort of stuff..
coz i see relationship as a commitment, u take time to talk to each other and try to cheer them up if they're sad. i will wan to tell him every little thing, in details. or maybe simple pinch on the face to show gesture of concern. these are communication?
or.. it's some sort of expectation.

tt's why.

i've been suppressing alot of these expectations, but it's jus not working. im back to square one again. and, i dont even know exactly why im upset and at this random time. i wont say im being ignored, take it as not being cared for enough.
if only you do it because you wan to, and not because you think you have it.

it's jus nothing, really.

*

i cant make myself type anymore and publish it. i look forward to the next date you will ask of me.

mind run loose, slightly

2007-08-16T10:27:00.000+08:00

i saw the amount of students walking in and the sky darkening minute by minute.

*evil grins*
if it start to rain, and very heavily kind.. these people will sure rush for the RPC directionn..
the thought of them scurrying in their drenched clothes thrills me. oh man.

but it's jus some random thought which you wish it happen yet you wont want it to happen.

I'm coming home

2007-08-06T11:31:00.000+08:00

these days, i encounter too many people. nice people, bad people, fake people, popular people, stupid people, superficial people and pretentious people and yaada, yada. I guess, it's fun.

i like to get all philosophical and talk about things like i know them very well, people always think they're thinking when they're jus re-arrangin their thoughts, anyhow, i rmb i read this somewhere across some blog,

"keep those, who keeps you close to their hearts."

i guess it speak very much too me. there are people i still try to please, somehow, and i overlooked somethings. and i ignored those who i already pleased, always underlooking them. i was close to tears when i chatted with liwen yesterday, realising im too caught up with my things and neglected us over time, im guilty of that.

there are the people of importance to me, time and effort i put in for them. i should pay less attention to myself, since i overdid it somehow. i forget, i should learnt the special quality in them since that is something im attracted to them.

and i wish im less sui bian, when it comes to decision. i've lost the stubborness in me somehow, cant place my finger to it as a good or bad thing. There will come this time, when u'll see it.

At work, i met this lady, ayu. Thanks for her, work was bearable in some ways. I mean, in the process of adapting to everything new u need some kind of support and she is it, yea, meatton is of course one. =]
For now.. It's like the worst working experience, being the most physically and mentally exhausting activities, well, at least so far in my life.

and why do people like to make use of people's goodness. it makes evil the thing to be then. if i can wiser up and be more street smart, i can work it out. yet, badass kick ass when good man suck cock.

time to overlook somethings, and be a graceful swan. but for some, we should still keep the leash tight.

i'll like the creature, all sticky and yakking. but he aint. oh wells, he's like a bonus, quit whining.
the kinships are bonus..
hoodlums is bonus, underground residents is bonus, liwen is bonus, xiao yuan is bonus..
even the tips is bonus.
because tips is bonus.. it'll be "if i have it.. i have it" but then, it contradict jus how i would apply it to bonus.. mmmmm..

People to life are like stars to the sky, we tinkle and shine, kaleidoscopically.

too many Is, u saw tt?

wide screen universe

2007-07-16T16:07:00.000+08:00

and so i sang my soul to happiness riding thru the darkness on the six wheeler coach

20 hours on coach, 2 hours of ferry and 36 hours of living redang. 58 hours of indulgence =]

i arrived back home in a super holiday mood. i only briefly attended friday's lesson, which means simply i skipped a whole week worth of lessons. hee
but with this whole missing school and being late of school, now im getting worried with how well i'll do for the modules. yet, i got this urge for me to skip school whenever, wherever. chewy, u better stop doing that.

in redang, i saw e horizon sprinkled with starry starry stars. with the chilled sand running in between my toes and as i lay there next to william i feel the romantic vibe getting to me. And so, i start to think about candlelight dinner and the so-into-each-other-gaze i often witnessed in the movies and drama. As i turn my head and look at him, oh, it's another thing, i totally forget william's such unromantic lover. But, it was good enough to have him there and our romantic attempts =] and im still wondering, but still proclaiming, i saw a shooting star?!

and there was a small fireworks display, it was rather sudden. We were actually puzzled with the sudden random booming,was it gunshot? shoot bird? ah, but it was my sis discovered the mystery of those loud noise. it was jus.. super awesome happiness pls.

then the resort had this channel, dedicated to this show 24/7 , so we watched the ending, the starting, the middle, the climax then finally we finished e show at one go. it was.. so not looking forward to the show.

most of the time, we chilled by the beach, ogled at 'kapiak', and erm.. walk around the place ba. This trip was rather disappointing because i missed the chance to soak up in the sea and do snorkelling, all thanks to irregular period striking at this most approriate time =S

but then the fact that i get to get to redang is a dream come true, thanks sis. as my sis and i watch the show years ago, we talked about visiting the beautiful island featured in the film. Look at where we jus came back from? =]

peace out, xoxo

chewy

ooh oo yea~

2007-07-08T14:14:00.000+08:00

ok now my excitement meter is increasing with every seconds and minutes passed.

so it was a countdown from weeks, to days now, to hours!
ok, i'll share my excitement!!!
so my sis passport had some problem, luckily everything were resolved in time.
and then, i started packing the luggage, throwing in every tank top and nice little shorts, i realise i brought 9 tops 5 shorts for a 3D2N. so it means.. i need to wear at least 3 top per day when actually we're leaving for home on the third day.. so ya get the drift yea?
so i cut down to 7 top, and im contemplating to bring my pillow there.
now the fully packed luggage is sitting in the corner of my room, ready for set off.
ok, so i should have packed all the stuff im suppose to, into it. woo.

so.. im really all set and ready, please no mood-spoilers now =]
BUT LOOK AT THE WEATHER!

oh love

2007-07-01T23:58:00.000+08:00

to end off my nice little weekend, i bought mini apple strudel; had dinner at Bakerzinn (WHOOSH, expensive indulgence) and got myself two nifty hush puppies boxer/shorts.

and the train ride home with sis was sweet. =]

im feeling it.

waking up in the early morn

2007-07-01T13:03:00.000+08:00

my weekend have been good till this minute(s).
yesterday, window shopping with the wendys was fun. Haahaha, we've got every comments for anything, somemore it's those no-brainer kind. So it was very laugh-inducing. also, when i got home, nobody was around, been long since i have this luxury of having the whole to myself! i can blast the music, sit around do anything with no concern of whether i'll disturb anyone or anyone disturbing me.
and then work was rather good for the fact that time passed fast and i met a pair of friendly japanese tourists.
And then i got my pay..
i had an afternoon bath, it felt different bathing in the afternoon. Coz i feel refreshed in the hot afternoon from the cold water splashing again my skin. Whoosh~ Now all clean and smelling nice
And it's like the last weekend to the redang trip!

now, im feeling all good and nice. i shall read/revise for my java test tomorrow =]
have a nice week ahead

xoxo,
chewy

we are everyone's baby

2007-06-27T20:55:00.000+08:00

i guess everyone's a big/overgrown baby. coz, every time we seek for comfort and security in the arms of others. look for affirmation from others and learning from it everytime.

we learn, learn to counter attack learn to fight off and learn to get up after every fall. how cliche. but somehow, it works the best.
but, i bet there are suave babies out there. well, in some ways i see that they've grow out of this phase im caught up in. it's like an extra or bonus to be suave babies. but being a baby is already something to be very content about, as it means that there's someone caring about u =)

come on, im trying hard to be a suave girlfriend. jus give me what im deprived of, can i? i'll let you on it in the mean time
and thou shall not abuse 'love'

i like you sexy, yes i do i do i yes i do i do i dooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo

What Can I Do, The Corrs

2007-06-21T00:11:00.000+08:00

I haven't slept at all in days
It's been so long since we've talked
And I have been here many times
I just don't know what I'm doing wrong

What can I do to make you love me
What can I do to make you care
What can I say to make you feel this
What can I do to get you there

There's only so much I can take
And I just got to let go
And who knows I might feel better, yeah
If I don't try and I don't hope

What can I do to make you love me
What can I do to make you care
What can I say to make you feel this
What can I do to get you there

No more waiting, no more, aching
No more fighting, no more, trying...

Maybe there's nothing more to say
And in a funny way I'm calm
Because the power is not mine
I'm just going to let it fly...

What can I do to make you love me
What can I do to make you care
What can I say to make you feel this
What can I do to get you there
What can I do to make you love me
What can I do to make you care
What can I change to make you feel this
What can I do to get you there

And love me...love me....love me..

im stupid

2007-06-16T14:15:00.000+08:00

heheh. i jus feel really stupid. i mean, i jus... YAYAYYAYA

asphyxiating

2007-06-14T04:11:00.000+08:00

look.. i shld be snoozing away.

but bcoz i've doing all the uncalled-for. each scenario gets scarier. this's the part of me where i myself is afraid of. it rob me of my time, my ability to think normally; to smile, to sleep. i dont want it to rob me of william. and it drain me of my energy and liquids. and then.. the mind's warped

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xin qin gen ben don bu yu kuai, xin li zi xiang zhe zui chao de.. jue de ta gen ben bu xi huan wo zi lei de shi qing. yi zhi ren wei ta hai xi huan zhe qian nu you, he leonard shi zhe yang... xian zai he ta ye shi zhe yang, dao di shi zhen yang??? nan dap.. zi zhi yi tian xing xin dou mei you ma? ze zhong gan jue chao tou le. yi zhi jue de.. wo men jiu zhe yang le. hao ke ba, zhen de. jiu ying wei insecure ma? ta ben lai jiu shi zhe yang de ma? hai shi wo guo yu chao xing le. zhong zhong de ke neng xin xia huai le wo, ni men hui shuo wo xiang tai dou, ke shi.. zhe de shi xiang tai duo ma? ru guo rang ni jian jian wo jie chu de qing xing ni hai hui zhe yang shuo ma? xie xia zhe yii qie yo yong ma. kao shu wo...
zai yi qi jian shi zhe yang.. zai yi qi hou ye shi zhe yang, chu le qing mi.. u kao shu wo, you fen bie ma?
xian zai, gan jue hao yu zi oh. gen ben bu xiang wo zhi zi zhen de.
you xie shi qing ye bu fang bian rang da jia zhi dao, bi jing, wo men dou chang zai yi qi, bie rang you guai guai de gan jue chan she although wo bu qing chu hui bu hui you. jiu hao bi wo bu yao make ta look bad jiu dui le la. wo bu pa si qu ta.. xie bi wo ye confess to him le. wo zhen de xi wang duan lian qing can work out

it's very scary now being myverytrueself, for the moment.
can something occupy my mind lot instead of allowing it to be warped?

this is totally such a random emotional time.

there isnt much to make out of this entry except im thinking of all the worst-case scenario kinda thing. or either that, im displaying the full force sensitive side of me. HORRIFYING, i know...

"Come up to meet you, Tell you I’m sorry, You don’t know how lovely you are
I had to find you, Tell you I need you, Tell you I set you apart
Tell me your secrets, And ask me your questions, Aww let’s go back to the start"

talk about saying hi

2007-06-14T00:58:00.000+08:00

i like, to greet friends i bump into along the streets or anywhere else. much preferably acquaintance, most of the time they smile and respond responsively.

if bumping into people and needing them to greet reluctantly.. i rather not. especially people whom i use to have a great time with. i rather them become the imaginary friends.. coz in mind, they're the people i once treasured very much.. these things are often preserved in mint condition till they ruined it, with a reluctant hello or even effortless greetings. i dont know why it affect me like this, maybe im no longer part of the piece they treasure or miss. But really.. i miss them somehow. i hope they too
they're people i've lost contact with over the years. maybe at my younger days.. i lost the effort to keep in touch, or maybe we've our new life to be caught up with or even we're jus not longer each other's 'sisters-or-whatever'. i still love these people's smile, it's ever-heartwarming coz u'll never find lovely people like them again as we grow up. =')

of course ther're people i wouldnt wan to bump into. like 'use-to-enemy' or supposingly crush, coz it's always im in my worse state, and there's this need in me to prove to them that im DOING WELL BETTER WITHOUT THEM IN MY LIFE. i know they dont give damn about me anymore, this's like the only way i know i can get back to them, at least to me uh. The need to appear good and the 'im-happier-than-u-look' to them is in me, i like to masquerade infront of such people, coz i know i not at the confident-confidence level.

but there're people i want to bump into, coz contacts with them are cut off unwillingly. i cant deny one of them is chris.. i always thought i saw her along the streets. and yes, alicia, i miss u alot alot, im all grown up now, we can go pool we can go club we can go drink as long u bring me along with u. ='( jus dont leave me out again..

it gets to me today. like how i wanna exterminate the whole ants society.
nobody will ever suspect, i'll jus explain i jus yawned and im really tired.

bye,

forgive and dont forget

2007-06-12T02:01:00.000+08:00

it was particularly strange for one of my secondary sch mate to msn me; fit zai. what he wanted was actually a meet up with the favourite teacher, mrs lee. aww.. i do miss her. anyway, the conversation then drifted to the people to join for the meet-up. following.. he talk bout a small meet-up within the class.. asking along the paris&nicole<3 of the class, who created the life-changing point of my life. tankew very much actually, :)

of course, i decline politely, stating that we werent close and it would be awkward if we were to hang out. i was entirely truthful with the reason, in addition, it will be shame on me to try and get 'on-terms' with them isnt it? well, i guess i talked about the encounters over and over again, countless times, and totally grew out of the phase where i want them died and being friendless forever, so i stop harping on it and talking about it(torment antics) altogether. i guess i've forgiven them, (read: Forgiveness bears no hatred to the mind) but i remember this.. forgive but never forget what they did to u =) therefore, enough said!

***
anyway, this's like really rare for i went out with my sis the second time in a year! and we booked and paid the deposit for the redang trip~ 热浪岛, 唉呀呀～awaiting for the confirmation *cross finger
and, and, i had 3 servings of ice cream today. totally cool. coz i finally taste the hokkaido ice cream! but then.. the cone aint appetizing, totally bring down the whole experience. well, what can i say more for a good day out? =)

with love,
chewwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwy

and i love the..smell on you

2007-06-07T07:34:00.000+08:00

i claim i dont like waiting, but i've been doing that alot more than you. I waited though i disliked. yet, this wait i'd gone thru brought me smiles and more smiles, probably more to come =)
uhmm.. now i find something amiss.

like i wore 'in-the-name-of-vainity' shoe despite the ache and blister, with that; dating and clubbing off i went. i still thread home with tt.

it's jus whether i would like to contd enduring these hitches-i-deemed. yes i will, and i cross my fingers, or i may be
you people, do it too. well, treat it like an exercise

P/S; i gonna go private with my blog. so.. dont fret if you cant access this url anymore. =)

peace out.

treasure chest

2007-05-31T23:55:00.001+08:00

i found a personalized facial/beauty consultant, presenting to you, Ms Hong Xiao Yuan;

hohoho. =)

2007-05-31T13:00:00.000+08:00

huat ah! the afternoon of public holiday jus smell so different~

maybe it signify the approaching holiday~ or maybe rain at a later time -.-
so my grades have on a average scale, at least it proves that my work is affecting my grades. hehe
well, i saw alot of pretty earrings at liang court ytd! :D
i wanna get it i wanna get it i wanna get it i wanna get it i wanna get it i wanna get it i wanna get it i wanna get it i wanna get it i wanna get it i wanna get it i wanna get it i wanna get it i wanna get it i wanna get it i wanna get it i wanna get it i wanna get it i wanna get it i wanna get it
they're like the ones i always want! plus got discount. swee ah~
so erm, i been having weird dreams the past few days. like very SCARY, RANDOM, FREAKY yes.. rojak dokk. thus, i decide to drop by the temple at waterloo street ther, the guan yin temple to do the divination lot thingy.
yea, so anyone to bugis next tues? gotham~~
***
as our hands intertwined ;
down the street we cruise
we talk bout the trip to come
wander in the lush green land
sneakily lurking in the shadows........

only one who knows

2007-05-17T15:40:00.000+08:00

when things slip away slowly, you get to see it but dont feel it. Coz it was so gradual so it'll be like you knew it kinda thing, and u've come to understand it. Jus like running ur hand thru a pile of sand. and so many times you've come across these, you know the game pretty well, guarded against the obvious, safe from the hands of sorrows. they like to say it's a sad fact, i couldnt agree more.

there's too much about-me post in this blog.. i ought to open up and be more worldly.

jus one more.. heee
i wish im more determine and be passion of something. liwen mention about having a goal in life, knowing what to do and pursuing it. what's with my 3-minute hotness (三分钟热度).. 好像很pathetic似的. i need a definite input in something. maybe like bakery? but i always become hesistant when i think about the cost, and the failures and numerous attempts to go through to achieve that yummilicous slice. dayumn.. im sucha loser. haha

sigh. i guess i need to sort out my life too. and liwen's like so true：“there is no formula to solve it.”

peace out!

good morning foetus

2007-05-13T03:23:00.000+08:00

aloha polapa.

the amount of thoughts exceed the capacity of mind, one become restless.

the super models wow-ed me. what were they thinking when they saw me checking them out?
how about the smiles? sneer; belittling or simply friendly gestures? it sums up how the working hours was like. mmm.. and i have this tendency of trying to outcool those 'cool peeps' and end up looking stupid. another tell-tale of insecurities? ok, maybe pump up those self-esteem and confidence, to another level. and, if i meet one of those people i label them as 'cool' and i really mean it, as in, in terms of their talents or their doing. Say for this designer, or photographer or this female drummer, i'll be too awed to speak coherently. Maybe this 'admiration' for them stop me from functioning as per norm. Or they could be celebrity.

sleeping is a major factor contributing to ur intelligence; beauty and functioning ability. when u're lacking in sleep, you lack in these three mentioned. example? me! not to look pathetic or hardworking.. but working and going out are jus excuses for sleeping late. i think.. maybe i jus wan to sleep late. or it could be like.. my mind works against what i want to. u get it?

then it lead to major problem being in class on time. which im slap with Cs since for almost every lesson since sch start... *yawns boring

what thus need to be call forth, time management (which im suppose to when i get my organizer) and also a new and boring acitivity, weight management. ;)

:) let's see.

qwerty poiuy okm

2007-05-05T11:30:00.001+08:00

minutes hand unveiled the morning sky
brought along my tired mind
sway to the city beats in a quickened pace
isolate the crowds with my head.

be a meanie

2007-05-02T23:42:00.000+08:00

watanabe,
these new classmates of mine are the sugar and spice, everything so nice. friendly, fun-loving well.. it seems that it's only on the pretext, yes on the pretext. let's jus say for all that i know, not what you know

i seriously have problem with people being nice to me and giving me a bad peer evaluation behind that nice-ness. i say fuck you.. And when i'm able to do contribute, all smiles and grin, apologizing for the lack of contribution and what's not. Not only looking for help and explaining, i pass the presentation of the main idea to you, even helping with the resources.

i should stop being nice and be judgenmental.
and yes, dont forget being selfish also, tt's the way for PBL, for this module for this team..
being nice to people like you people make me a fool.

for once, im gonna bite real hard. for fuck sake, i dont know how... but let's jus see ba.

chao cheekeng

断点

2007-04-30T12:47:00.000+08:00

been long since the last time we sang together, at kbox/partyworld.

chrissy.. i do miss your presence. BUT.. it's jus i miss your presence.

when it's about you

2007-04-26T01:42:00.000+08:00

if this's the way he is, i guess there's no other way. it dont worth jeopardizing something i like so much for.. personal interest, at least that's how i see it. let it be like this, what i can do is refrain from reading into anything anywhere too much.

actually, you look at it this way.. it's actually nothing a big deal. it's just a bond just like you have with everyone yet this one it's just mothen the others.

i like him for being like this, so what's with being so uptight how things should be? dating shouldnt be how it should be ba, what counts is that.. it is how it is, no should be? let's just say.. just take it like i use to be, enough said.

like..

2007-04-24T14:01:00.000+08:00

this i totally different from what i thought it was.. i wasnt seeing this when i saw it, like.. seriously.

i dont like missing people in this manner. im becoming boring with all these talk... like really.

mary on the ground with love

2007-04-14T02:24:00.000+08:00

it was mouldy shoe day. and i miss the comfort fit badly.. to the salon i went; a new streak was dyed, red it is. and im feel uber rad-ish now. ROARR.
then i realise.. the acount balance dont balance with what i've got to accomplish. BUT, i've scratch several to-do's off the list already! so it's one big accomplishment already! so rewards for that~ :)

with saturday and sunday past, it'll be school once again. then having to work on sat.. led me to picture this in my head..

tt's this invisible force pushing.. maybe it's this negativa aura that surrounds us, now that i give more thought bout it.. of course it'll get to me more easily.

let's fry our brain ladies.

-

2007-04-10T01:43:00.000+08:00

this night i took a longer route home.
and the familiar faces i saw make it seems like secondary's school life was jus yesterday.. but no one was in the mood to celebrate this reunion.
what gather us wasnt good news and the vibe it gave out were all cold and isolation and of course the usual sorrows and sadness.

i been here the second time. when facts are here to stay yet denial wont go away..
dear meiyan, do rest in peace. u'd lightened up someone's day with ur charming smile :)

***

school start in 5 more days. im thrilled yet not ready for it, i mind-checked and it looks like hectic schedule im down with. and i've yet get my organizer.. maybe the whole damn pay.. then the list of things i need to get jus add up. i was referring to the broke leather strap and what bout the 30$ khaki jean i saw today? and and.. i still wanna get those japanese prints clik klak purse. hahaha.

we need a hideout. spread the love yo

insecurities

2007-04-08T14:27:00.000+08:00

If im not strong enough for it.. it will jus overwhelm and eat me up.

and it's jus thin line i'll be threading on

greet the soul within

2007-03-22T17:31:00.000+08:00

another night of clubbin brings new realisation. i enjoyed girlfriends' company nonetheless :) and we got to know each other again like never before.

the before and after times are much more well spent.

***
as usual, i was on the train home. the whole stretch of cabin was filled with people wearing that familiar uniform, carrying the backpacks n in slumber. i then reminiscenced the times where i wash my hair everyday and make sure the centre partying is of accuracy; where i dragged my droopy eyes open to cross the street for school; where i greet my familiar schoolmates. now, it seems like yesterday nia.

these humans; dont know how envious i am of them. yet, probably what they yearn for is what im precisely fretting over bout it now. it's always this case, we like to focus what's isnt there than rather what's there, dont we? like me la

and look at the beautiful sky each day have for us, all the male and female species that passes me by hurriedly probably never/rarely bothers to take note of such magnificent sight. i never want to fasten my pace; what if i lost this pace of mine and never regain it back? thus missing out such beauty, then i stand to lose out such intimate moment with myself in such inexpressibly surroundings. as i looked at the golden clouds i witnessed and the emotions that swelled up within me.. awwww.......

the lrt ride itself along the track; sitting myself nxt to its window, i caught a glimpse of the sun jus stretching its rays over the clouds in the background of the peaceful apartments and the glistering beam from the beneath traffic... it sooth and stirred up everything within. i wish for more of it.

hello folks

2007-03-21T02:48:00.000+08:00

have u read and watch a story/film before? which means you read bout this film word by word and watch the novel in motion?

i really wanted to read Memoirs of Geisha way before the film's out in the theatre. That's bcoz of Chris actually recommend me the book long long time ago, but being occupied with the preparation of O's and all the outing with them, i was of course not making the effort to hunt for the book.

Then came the period where every copy of Memoirs of Geisha in the NLB are on loan.. nyway, now that i've got my hands and eyes on this book. i must say.. it's totally awesome.

all the nitty-witty description the author, arthur have to write.. is really impressive. really, it's amazingly astonishly awesome to the core. those words turns me wordless to describe them...

and the thing tt bothers me is that.. as im reading.. i tend to be guided by the words in the books and imagined the whole scenario out of my own will. BUT, having watched the movie before reading, i see myself making reference to the scenes from the movie as i proceed with the story line. and it kind of turn me off not fully able to enjoy the lavish of the beautiful sentences Arthur have carved. the movie is really incomparable to what the book have got to offer

really.. if you've got the time to spare, it makes a gd afternoon read.

oh?

2007-03-19T00:17:00.000+08:00

previously the road lamps shone thru the darkness brightly; unlike tonight's.

it was already humid during the evening, but it jus bothers me how come it's misty in sengkang? nostalgic vibe given out.
the night seem more dimly illuminated then the usual, it slow my pace down and i indugle in such isolation. several cars zooming by; green lights flashin; scattered humaniods in the area.. walking home tonight was rather heavy.. but working was such a breeze.

keep a lookout for such side effects.. of you.

i cross the street; say hello; smile and wink; wave goodbye....... all in daze

10 a.m, the clouds at it's best

2007-03-17T00:20:00.000+08:00

as i look out of the LRT i was in.. the cloud was jus spreaded out nicely like how i do the jam on my bread. it made me feel so small transiting in that movable cabin as compare to the moving clouds in that vast dimension.

the ride home was me scribbling into that rad frankestein notebook; haaha and all i got into it was me being a poet wannabe.. alas it send me spiraling into several minutes of negative moments. and i thought bout this;

all of us, seek the agreement/opinons/stand/view (or whatever floats your boat) of someone we trust; of what we're concerned with. i dont know how people goes bout it, but to me its been rather important and consistent. i look at the watch then the traffic light. i seek freedom for my boxed-up mind. i've got dirty little secrets that holds my head high nowhere.. but really.. who cares.

look at this, all made up from the complexity of humanity; which explains.. simplicity's fatal. i lust after this fella's breath.

Ü

2007-03-08T09:17:00.000+08:00

hellow sweet when i looks at it, it's practically sunrise.
sweetness totally savoured. yummy..

im askin this to be for real. yes yes it is
take it slow i will.. i wanna keep for long :)
*

awesome wednesday; sweet afternoon & great-girl's night out once again.

actually.. the chill-out, cam-whoring and pubbing lagi best :D

when the calamaris get evil

2007-03-02T00:55:00.000+08:00

how was ur day?

i cant slp in today; it was really a nice weather to snuggle up in the bed.. so it was like so cool it didnt make me wan to do the dishes or get into contact with the water, even the tap was giving off the cold vibe.

other than that i was fretting over the doin of the evil calamaris.. i have like 4 prominent mark spread over my face :( how to go out like that? very hideous ley.. nxt week still got a night out how to look nice nice? it wont recover by then.

all i wan is nice complexion. is every 18 girl goin 19 experience such excessive popping of blackwhite heads? siansation. anyway.. i think im not going to proclaim to many things i wanna do.. somehow i cant get all to-dos ticked.. if not in the end i dissappoint myself at the end of the day.

i wish irving all the best and myself too. saturday it will be.

turn on the stereo..

2007-02-24T19:35:00.000+08:00

when it's a saturday evening. sit by the window and look at that sight.. awww..what a nice way to spend time by yourself. i have the whole house to myself somemore.. no wait, is ourselves i mean, tt is incl. berry uh.
oh.. i miss those lasses and lads. ok, i'll be down at the fairprice, consider what shld i add into my porridge. text me some misses

friday's

2007-02-24T02:20:00.000+08:00

horight,

so i had a theme-outing with the underground residents. yummy, they're such sweet lass. anyway, the them being 'lady'. i decide to don on my dress, wore heels and carry the lil handbag. i felt i was overdoing it, but come on.. girls have every reason to dress up. but i reckon girls need no reasons to dress up since.. girl being girls. heehe. but seriously, i feel rather poise to be heeling away minus away the occasional vision-valley peekaboo HAAHAAHAA. dayammmnn..
well, playin UNO outside FEP's the deal. It was like simply awesome la. Laughing and fighting over all the draw 2 draw four cards was like so amusing, then pat krab & gary was looking out for nu skool dudes, YES the DARE!! ahahaha... wait and a neoprint of us =] ish ish ish anyway, the UNO playing got me into some frenzy

once again at shelter... i got leonard and william to play the board games uh. hahahaha, well, snake&ladder was rather long-winded. but.. fly aeroplane chess was like SO exciting can? HAHAHA, i cant help but to scream in delight when i can kick one of those chips back home. or having my chips getting kicked lalallala~ it's so thrilling and enriching i guess. really. ah yes and removing vann's ear stud arghhhhh! so thrilciting. oh yes.. and the black condom joke. seems like one of the best day out.. look, maybe one of the best night at shelter?

and i really wanna get some money rollin in. keeping my fingerd crossed for my job training! vann and i are soon-to-be-colleagues-and-friends. so cool. first time to actually job hunt with close friends and gettin the response~~~

yummy, 's so sweet.
oh yes.. and i've got a confession to make :)

loser

2007-02-16T00:48:00.000+08:00

i will cry if u throw my blanket away, mummy.

dont say that..

as the night unfurls..

2007-02-01T00:27:00.000+08:00

Oh, up above the bustling crowd
the full moon look about
with fickle stars twinkling.
splendour of night
ahh..what a beautiful sight
bring your pace to a halt,
thus immense yourself in awe.

my of-sound-track

2007-01-25T00:20:00.000+08:00

before i forget.. i jus come up with this idea; if ur life's like a movie then what songs would be use as the soundtrack?

when im dating and feeling high;
Kiss Me - Jewel

i believe that things gonna be better;
Brighter Than Sunshine - Aqualung

some quiet moments when im spending;
Gender Bombs - The Stills

time to fight for something i want;
Seven Nation Army - The White Stripes

if i cant find someone to talk to;
Boston - Augustana

jus wanna bop to a tune on board;
Highly evolved - The Vines

remisncing;
Rockabye Baby - The Nerves

feeling the weekend's morn;
Sunday Driving - Rivermaya

forgiving somebody;
Sway - Bic Runga

hip poping;
What's Your Altitude - Cut Chemist feat. Hymnal

getting high to head smash;
Rock'n'Roll Queen, Take Me Away, Mary - The Subways
Good Morning, Herr Horst - Mando Diao
Electricorp - Electrico

mission acomplish;
Superfantastic - Mr. Big

swaying around mindlessly;
Sway - Dean Martin

haha

2007-01-24T11:41:00.000+08:00

the outside sound bombarding the inner ground
teeth chatters in the dry cold air
and i sat on the chair noting this down,
finding everything to do nothing.

hand me my kaleidescope?
等等。。

i so much jus wan a hug.. now
ey sai buey?

the Da Vincinabehfukew Coat

2007-01-21T21:14:00.000+08:00

i realise that's this vibe all the different words give out.

and that's how a whole chunk of words come together and... feeling it!

*

listen to this raw n fine juice they've come to get you ripping everything off even the ever-durable facet of yours quit being the pooch and get out of it i wish u can stay in the cell and scribble on the foolscap all day long i've been filling the bottle up and thou jus spill it out for me aint no tough job but sucha dirrty one should i read from the note you'll be dead but too bad dude i missed you so badly that i tie this knot and anchor it at hearts avenue not knowing you drive by and pullover for a drink if that's how being shld be the valids shld be cursed and snort at so i spew all over her with all scaring alongside bringing the crazy antics nothing's too bad to think about since brainins jus get blended within the case when the sun shine at the noon they run out without sharing the freedom leaving the rest of the monkey crawling and squealing and getting caught in the naked situation till the shelter was breeding something esle than micro organism while the cheekens still finding the malt frm the floor there wasnt anything esle to thrive on contd typing as the water keep dripping pitter patter tick tock piang trying grinding on the hard cold floor with that sweet smelling hand of yours make me keep coming back for more in the images where i left all the keys to the cabinets i arranged under the scalp of thy messy netted bush meanie i shall be as of yesterday i killed ur barns all the animals running insane sweetie wolf mention being the strong and pig sliding towards the weak cant decipher what's in it kept its face towards the clouds and breathe in the toxicated typocygen rightfully found in ochrasy where piggy wants to reside but all that enticing moments of chrissy keep popping out and the bucket was left ther having to run and collect in conjuction to the new found friend shit the gundus venture into a round of gambling where the stakes are their mental note cuss the banker for bribery took the thousand note and trade in for the deprived love when everything mosaiced, reality comes clear, all if you could see what's underneath when there's nothing no more being true or real when all they say thesother are are bull's shiting unable to unravel the mystery of glasstogen living up in my pubic planet they decide to shift into anea of happy ground if not catching up with them pariah you're one and it's so tiring to race with one another so be it the decision to come and untie the knot awaken more of the sensory neurons residing in my eyebrows if they're thick bring me some to devour them esle jus keep them dancing in the cage and plow their limbs into the subtle ground of everything getting all flirtaious and intimately loving the whole time dancing with the desperados sticking their groins out waiting to be get stab. purple shirt eye stabber do your job, now.

the intensity of the mind ooze out of the scribbling tendons bring the dimension into a kaleidescope, travel with me down the path of maryland bless you'll be with the vibrants of moronics philosophy. drench if u coat on. it jus keep pritter plattering jolly it could be fake siren sironing

if ever i read this and understand again.. im going to states again.
comeon.. i jus gonna unravel the mystery soon and we'll be loving it.

whatever for the moment and contd schneaky sneaky partners im relishing.

breathe in breathe out, puke now
peace out

for a laugh

2007-01-20T14:35:00.000+08:00

Cyanide & Happiness @ Explosm.net

on the replay

2007-01-17T12:20:00.000+08:00

Cut Chemist feat. Hymnal - "What's the Altitude"

go go power ranger

2007-01-12T23:37:00.000+08:00

so... im equiped with umbrella for the rainy days im caught in.
it feels great. like... a satifaction kind of feel.

mary goes round in the toy car, on the big sofa.
fright show on the radio, blasting on the stereo alluring bloke came knocking on the door asking for a walk along the walls. down the street with the arms in lock, spread the love to the nearby shop.
ice cream parlour served us well tipped the server with my smile, infatuation paid the dues.
what's more to order for?

while they head to happy hunting ground.

2007-01-06T00:30:00.000+08:00

hear how she complained about living;
feel for the scar embedded on his scalp;
gaze at the crooked wrinkles crawling out.
what they have to feel,
from the then to the now, peekaboo.
look from the inside,
what to do, your option to ache.

expectations she have of me,
naturally of her to come up with that;
unexpectedly of me to fail it.
now that most's gone,
got to look at what's left.
tell me where you wanna go,
i'll bring you in the dreams.

good life i'll let you lead,
happy feelings to bestow upon.
hardships turned sweet
all is my plans only.

selfishly thoughtful;
i see myself falling thru.
thinking big; doing small.
what to instill appear doom.

look at him for what he've got to offer
i turn my face in utter disgust..
not suppose to do this;
but everything's brought to the start.
and frustration's next up.
chasing after the wealth others chased upon;
u end up losing all.

nth to bring it a halt,
only to contd winding the wheel.
u smudge the trust seal crafted for you
and overwrite it till its purpose's wipe out.
everything overwhelm one another;
tasting like baron's strong brew.

when everything melts away like lemon drops;
i inscribe the full stop.
win-win, it could be.
or maybe simply-maybes.

once again, i took note
in my forget-me-not
instead, tag under constant-forget-me.
no lines to cross, no barricade to deter
free flow all night long~

weep for sorrow, cry for joy
such highly emotional and sensitive state of mind,
exist in beings like me.
jus clean it, and flush away.
everything's alright.

ought to learn what i saw,
standing tall after one another.
utmost respect and inadequate empathy;
salute the warriors i regard in Ngs'.

what i've come to know; they're such strong creatures.

''2007 hasnt had it's best start'' quoted frm irving."

peace out
chewy

'07

2007-01-03T12:53:00.001+08:00

it's a new year. new sch term.............................
whatever.

i start off the new year with the hoods and yes, it's the shizznit.
they're always the shizznit =)

i see that i should value my wealth in this year, my tooth too.. and spend time with famileee
and contd rockeeroo my time with the hoods, simple-year-long-to-do-list? eekharrrr

oh yea, contd sapot TheNervesthenervesthenervesthenervesthenervesthenervesthenerves
thekinthenervesthenrvesthenervesangkiathenervesthenervsesyaqsyuaibwilliamthenerves
thenervesthenesvesthenervesthekinforeignkillertHeNervestHenervesTheNervesthe
NervesthenervesThenErvesthEneRvestheNervestHenerveStheNervestheNerves

we always sapot you, shout for you, scream for you and jus... sapot..

mademoiselle la nuit

2006-12-29T00:51:00.000+08:00

so high and dry.

''concoction of emotions,
requisite the favoured spirits.
beBop alu-la,
get low and get slow.
kurt & jack in da house yo, in da house yo''

sir,
coffee, tea, or me?

the thing is

2006-12-27T01:52:00.000+08:00

i think and assume too much.

interval.

aiya.. typical girls.

interval.

so im like evoluting into one of those i dislike? so wtp?

period.

i think.. people are the same. it's jus the encounters differs. bcoz, we're individuals.

whatever.

when i was much younger, i so much want my parents attention.

alright.

i like someone so easily..

uh huh.. so what?

i preach one and do another.. most of the time

wah lau ey.

it makes thing easier not to suck in my tummy

ok lo.

i so scare of saying wrong things...

why?

i like ppl to be happy, on their own. better if im the one cheer them up.

roger that.

i would like to know when i die.

then plan right?

i wan to know so many things badly.. grrrr

ok... and then?

we're suppose to think of the consequences of our action?

it's jus a guideline babe.

i do too many things deemed redundant.

for whos sake you thinkin about?

i jus wan something more.. and alittle less.

go work it out then...

i annouce rolling and piggyback is so my thang.

say.. WHO THE FUCK WANNA KNOW?

i jus wanna share

alright alright...

nyway.. dont take me for real, and we'll jus hang out.

hanna, points noted. so action

i might jus be your imaginary friend...........

right.. right... then?

im wondering what if people dont give a damn about me?

my my my.. i bet it's awful. but omg, it's so semo

we're suppose to be like this ey?

mmmm..

people are busybody..

for your well being ma.
it explains why you're so loved.

when i woke up, i saw milton, syuaib and william going "do the same action ah!''. i grined. thinking to myself.. cute dudes, humourous.. funny guys. all to get them laughing heartily is to ish ish ish together.

so happening ah..

i had a vision of something crumbling..

what the fuck.. again?

no.. it wont loop

you're kidding for real.

really..

aiya.. go fuck a spider and die.

it's a nice day actually. and i saw the cute guy frm sch. *giggles* and i acted cool and all.

ee! sucker. boo!

let 2007 arrive then make everything nicely.

ok... procrastination.......

festive season and holidays are in short. "Enjoy and... be cool''

as you wish.

so fun to lounge around.

keep it short ey...

and.. i love everyone. yes.. you, and you, and you, and youuuuuuuuuuuu~. over.

they love you too.. probably. amen.

merry christmas

2006-12-25T17:51:00.000+08:00

well, it's the 25th december'06.

we had our fair share of fun at the stayover. you see, it's really nice that you spend time with your friends with the festive mood goin on and you're to enjoyed yourself with everyone.
well, at least it's suppose to be like that.

anyway, "at Christmas you tell the truth".. didnt i? hee
it wasnt k.o. and yes. keep it strong and i make it ther.
no, it's not good time im having uh syaq.. it was hes-sis-tet-ion

im so gonna have fun before holidays end.
and.. i was rather apologectic for being a part of the spoilsport. we're suppose to crash the house and watch dvd or sing merry songs and like laugh the time away ey. instead, we wasted the night away, to drinking and attempts to save to drunkards and.. what's not.. i indeed thought few sip help to get into the season.. but it backfired ey. transformed into octopus cum goli, who made xueer and vannessa and harpreet constantly attempting to save the hay which i politely rudely refuse to let them to. dysfuncted. damn it. and i rant to supposingly harpreet and irving.. i reckon a gd way to drift off to sleep. wait, did i or did i not? yes ah yes ah. anyway.. i suppose i got my share of rest. it did me good anyway. so long.. im me, and she's she ... if not, it's real one damn pathetic sickening bothersome ugly mary. but... asleep ey? and dream dream dream of how she doing
it better be

peace out,
chewy

Daft Punk - Digital Love

2006-12-21T19:07:00.000+08:00


Last night I had a dream about you
In this dream I'm dancing right beside you
And it looked like everyone was having fun
the kind of feeling I've waited so long

Don't stop come a little closer
As we jam the rythm gets stronger
There's nothing wrong with just a little little fun
We were dancing all night long

The time is right to put my arms around you
You're feeling right
You wrap your arms around too
But suddenly I feel the shining sun
Before I knew it this dream was all gone

Ooh I don't know what to do
About this dream and you
I wish this dream comes true

Ooh I don't know what to do
About this dream and you
We'll make this dream come true

Why don't you play the game ?
Why don't you play the game ?

Digital Love

i walked in the rain..

2006-12-19T21:53:00.000+08:00

with the umbrella sheltering me frm the harsh splatter of the raindrops.

look at those lovely raindrops as they make their way frm the clouds to the muddy puddle, look at them, hurriedly pouring down and along with them they bring, the romantic and lazy fuzzy comfort.

looks like i have a piece of heaven. awesome
oh.. a hot apple strudel in a weather like this is simply.. heavenly.

and when you know you've fallen out of love with the one whom you thought you've fallen in love for years, it's kind of estactic ey. Look at how iris jumped.
and i jump for joy too.

keeping this for rainy days

2006-12-15T03:09:00.000+08:00

stand back~ there's a hurricane coming thru! says:
jsut dunt think too much uh
stand back~ there's a hurricane coming thru! says:
hold what's around u
stand back~ there's a hurricane coming thru! says:
and dun look beyond too much
stand back~ there's a hurricane coming thru! says:
if not surely unhappy
stand back~ there's a hurricane coming thru! says:
=( u dun have to be envy
stand back~ there's a hurricane coming thru! says:
u have a best bud what
stand back~ there's a hurricane coming thru! says:
and the rest of the hoods..
stand back~ there's a hurricane coming thru! says:
okie=)
stand back~ there's a hurricane coming thru! says:
dun harp on it okie
stand back~ there's a hurricane coming thru! says:
sleep earyly go

she said goodbye

2006-12-11T23:27:00.000+08:00

i felt like a dumbpuck
dont ask.
go be that emokid on the bloc

"she's not easy not that fatal
bring her a toy and she smile for you
flirt with her.. damn, she'll be hook onto you

get behind the masquerade
march off with MCR to the black parade.

you thought you know it all when it's nothing at all.

jus keep on moanin, it'll bring the guy back to your bed
maybe being a cunt helps a little
but i aint gonna step that low

phantom of opera descend upon here
wear off that plastic wall between you and me

we shall see it all

hail the queen who built the walls
defend the greatest downfall of hearts avenue
but fuck her for being such a fool
cant you open and close? in the structure i have for you
wher i carved it silently on your scalp every fortnight

not much love is needed. it's alot in fact.
bring in the ransom and i'll drain this lovely girl you thought she is
heading to the airport with no baggage.

come on, jump on this flight and glide on grind.

better be before
she said goodbye"

2006-12-08T02:29:00.000+08:00

look at how far i've come..

and sis jus let me realise that i have been writting to my diary for close to two years. yes but that's not like a everyday routine.
there are alot of times i jus flip thru it, but jus didnt get that it dated back to 2004. and i look thru and wrenched everytime when i read about something i havent put a closure to it. but hey.. it's getting lesser and lesser.
i read about the mental struggle i've went thru, the type of insult i put myself to, how many times when i fake orgasm(happy) and how many times i see his shadow in.. i felt twisted. i think about how come i was.. depreciating myself. i guess all these are some insulting moments we have to go thru.

and there are little riddles i havent solve nor do i want to solve. prolly, it'll come to me one day like i rmb how one of them came at such unexpected times =) sweet misery. and i cant remember how many "this gonna be the last time.." i've said and maybe even chris's sick of it but jus kept mum. haaha, but ytd i dreamt of making my way out of a maze. keep my fingers cross. the difference isnt big uh, but.. yes it's ther and you know it's no longer ther.

when i look forward that everything gonna be better, it turns out fine. now that it's fine and gd, what do i look forward too?

wel... maybe show me some love
but i doubt anytime soon.

i know im cool

2006-12-07T00:06:00.000+08:00

so i have a kaleidescope now. and it's treat with utmost care.. aaawesome baybeh

i like it alot. so much that i take it out in the free afternoon and fiddle with it as and when.. i like it.

i have alot of thoughts these few days, but i havent like arrange them properly, so you see.. "alot peopl think they're thinking when actually they're jus rearragning their thoughts" they're so randomly popping out

also.. i know i like to compare. compare this and that, those and these with other people. it seems that chris's word still hanging outside me. it dont make me happier if i compare, it jus help to lower my self esteem which i painstakingly took so long to build it up. so.. no self destruction pls. alot ppl will appreciate if i stop this lo.. coz u know butterfly's effect right?

despite that superficial beauty wont last is true.. it's still man's thirst to lust after it and it be the downfall of manhood.

why cant i have that beauty and cause the downfall of yours?
*
chris ah chris.. i really dont know what to say to you =(
maybe. u shld really go fuck a spider and die ba..........................
wait.. u know what? i saw jason on the train again.. superbly uberly disgusted by him once again.

do a meme

2006-12-05T12:08:00.000+08:00

The rules: Bold the statements that are true to you. Italise the statements that you WISH are true. Leave the rest alone. Then, tag 5 people to do the same test.

I miss somebody right now.
I don't want TeeVee these days.
I wear glasses or contact lenses.
I love to play video games.
I've tried marijuana.
I have been in a threesome.
I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.
I believe honesty is usually the best policy.
I curse sometimes.
I have changed alot mentally over the last year.
I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.
I'm TOTALLY smart.
I've broken someone else bones.
I'm paranoid sometimes.
I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
I need money right now.
I like sushi.
I talk really, really fast.
I have long hair.
I have lost money in Las Vegas.
I have at least one sibling.
I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.
I couldn't survive without Caller I.D.
I am usually pessimistic.
I have a lot of moodswings.
I have a hidden talent.
I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar i have.
I have alot of friends.
I have pecked someone of the same sex.
I enjoy talking on the phone.
I practically live in trackpants or PJ pants.
I love to shop.
I don't hate anyone.
I'm a pretty good dancer.
I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
I have a cell phone.I believe in God.
I watch MTV on a daily basis.
I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.
I've rejected someone before.
I have no idea what i want to do with the rest of my life.
I want to have children in the future.
I have changed a diaper before.
I've called the cops on a friend before.
I'm not allergic to anything
I have alot to learn.
I have been with someone at least 10 years older or younger.
I am shy around the opposite sex.
I have tried alcohol before.
I have made a move on a friend's significant other or crush in the past.
I would die for my best friends.
I think Pizza Hut has the best pizza.
I don't pick my food.
I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all.
Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.
I watch Spongebob Squarepants and i like it.
I am happy at this moment
I'm obsessed with girls.
I study for tests most of the time.
I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone Ive ever met.
I am comfortable with who i am right now.
I have more than just my ears pierced.
I walk barefoot whenever i can.
I have jumped off a bridge.
I love sea turtles.
I spend ridiculous money on makeup.
I plan on achieving a major goal/dream.
I'm proficient in a musical instrument.
I work at McDonald restaurant(before).
I hate office jobs.
I love sci-fi movies.
I think water rules.
I want to go to a college out of state.
I like sausages.
I love kisses.
I fell for the worst people.
I adore bright colours.
I can't live without black eyeliner.gothic!
I can't whistle.
I have ridden/owned a horse.
I still have every journal i've written in.
I can't stick to a diet.
I talk in my sleep.
I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions.
Climbing trees are a brilliant past-time.
I have jazz in my blood.
I wear a toe ring.
I have a tatoo.
I can't stand at LEAST one person that i work with.
I am a caffeine junkie.
I cosplay (no i dont) or know what cosplaying is (yes).
I have been to over 15 conventions.
I will collect anything, the more nonsensical the better.
I'm an artist.
I only clean my room when necessary.
I like a person of the same sex.
I love being happy.
I am an adrenaline junkie.
Tag 5 people? a group.. ey sai buey? here goes..

HOODLUMSS

truly madly deeply

2006-11-30T11:56:00.000+08:00

i had a splendid 21st november, seriously. tankews and tankews...
it's not enough.
the simple thoughts already get me smiling so much, let alone the effort..!
"the thought and effort and sweetness that oozes out of the sms, msn, personal messages was literally pulling my lips east-west non stop remix throughtout the day.

no amount of tankew can afford to represent how i really felt but all i can do is to utter tankew respectively to everyone, it was all so lovely and thoughtful and sweet and

all because emotions drowned my voice.

there were surprises, there were waiting in vain for it, .. but bu pa bu pa la" excerpt frm chewy's diary

***

im getting on fine dudes. have not miss out anything.. been keeping up with everything. tiresome bothersome awesome. rather pointless at times. some times i look at her and snigger at her for being such a pathetic loser. haahaha. really, i laughed at her. silly one, chris would say.
coz it's like.. if you try too hard and you still fail, it worth a laugh. really.

i like to admit how selfish i am when i know i am but i cant admit im selfish because you all will know how i am but no matter what i know how selfish i am i wont admit im selfish infront of you and you will know how selfish i am. talk about karma huh..

it's like..
it's like yesterday i had swensen and did the countdown with kingkong.

咱们一起来

2006-11-18T02:11:00.000+08:00

我想试着跟自己的心声跳支舞
跳着属于我自己rock'n'roll的舞
世界不需要多姿多彩
只要我活得laughing heartily

如果，不跟着旋略的规略走。。。
咱们走着瞧。

let's forget what we should, and let the good times roll. every people off the record and play without thyr rules. we're so highly evolved.. leaving you high and dry, searchin for more and more..

buy a bigger drawer.

Nice day, ingredients

2006-11-16T23:26:00.000+08:00

cold morning. long sleeve. scarf. cold room. preparation. joe. explanation. discovery of the subtle appeal. small get together with W24P mates. free lunch. filled hunger. early dismissal. RJ's completed in school. take picture. hacked andrew. present in making. brownie. smooth nap onboard. enclosed musik playground. striking. getting it about right. amatuer new sound. rock and really roll. asperger syndrom. talkabout. gift exchange. disscussion. persuasion. agreement!. anticipation. mini cooper proximity. home cooked warm dinner. HDB-lookalike faeces by berry.

laughter la
everyday's almost well spent, laughin heartily.
wait minus the awkward hiding pretending didnt see feeling sorry part.. mmmm... not on any terms

\m/
all for the peace, joy and laughter.

peace out pokkamons

"like vines we intertwined"

2006-11-13T22:14:00.000+08:00

How nice a phrase. it reminds me of chris when i was having my chicken soup, she uses a phrase that goes like this "aiya, it's your life, so fuck care what the others think." Seriously, i seem no point in denying that sentence, it's really like, "it's mine it belongs to me who do u think you are to rob me of the power to make my own choices and determine who i am." right, isnt it true chris? but now, i beg to differ. Sorry babe ;)

you see, actually everyone's resolving around each other, so it's very unlikely to fuck care people within this circle, with reference to highly regarded and care about people. Because i bet it's all the important and treasured people inside, of course u want it all smiles. So, i realise u dont fuck care ppl tt are important to you, because they're very much treasured, even is they're comments and advice or their pet or their good friends or simply their day. i reckon asking the right people to fuck care about you is really sedap sedap. Agree with me la, chris. hehehe. It's really simple to relish in what you have. Like how me and xiao yuan & bf pick up $5 along the bridge on the way home, we bought fries and donated the change. cool hor

"Like vines we intertwined
Carelessly growing up and growing old
Life was on our tongues
And it taste heavenly so good" - The Hush Sound

let's play together

2006-11-08T10:31:00.000+08:00

there's this game, namely mindgames, mindfuck if u game-over. it's said to be a two player game, but then i relise it's a one player game instead of two and the other player's jus an imaginary figure in it. It's rather fun and interesting when u start a new round of game, but hor.. towards the end it gets predictable and u jus need to revised the emotion strategy. The challenge of it, when new elements or weapons are patched on, then hor, the quest alil bit different liao. So it's kind of fun in a way, but u jus get mindfucked everytime u game-over.
on the other way, it's rather bothersome to indulge in such childish game. i thought i've grow up?

aiya.. anyway the help-wizards are always in the option menu. and they never fail to launch and complete their mission. therefore, it's perfectly fine to venture into such games. Provided u're some whiny little silly bassretard with imbalance hormones swimming everywher in your mechanism. but, u wont know u're in the game till.. u become the foreign killer and stab into the butt of it. or take pictures non-stop remixly till you froth

no, not out of the game yet.. how
siao liao...

she say

2006-11-02T11:50:00.000+08:00

it was ardous
feeding on the puppy
love between them seem to drain her more

and they lose it all

no one's in the town
the world seems so small
it's a sunday without sun
the raindrops decide to fall
like how the pillars crumble
an easy tough to take

and they lose it all.

it's mayday.. pls call 1900-911-911 save a life today.
***

running away, i cant pretend.
coz.. i know! but nobody knows..
i jus wan to kill.. kill.. KILL
wakakakakaka